Thursday, June 9, 2011

NTC Review



From May 3-8 I was in Ottawa for Athletes in Action’s National Training Camp (NTC). NTC is an opportunity for athletes from all across Canada will get together. There were 70 athletes and about 30 staff and interns present.  Perspectives are changed and athletes learn that their passion and talent is from God and through playing they can worship God if they allow Him to come onto the field with them. As I journeyed through the week of sessions, and lab situations on the field, the staff challenged us to retire the athlete slave inside us. The athlete slave is the one that is tied into the sport 100%, they go beyond paying with intensity to the point that their identity is hinged on athletic success. This athlete is devastated and shaken to their core with a loss or an injury.

Working on my agility. My coach would be proud!
I wanted to share a bit of what God taught me as the week progressed.  One of my biggest struggles with my faith has always been knowing the truth, but never really feeling it in a tangible way. It was as if the knowledge was stuck in my head but could never reach and impact my heart. I had the blessing of captaining a fantastic team of athletes for the S.P.E.C.I.A.L. (A 24+ hour sport marathon that truly pushes you to your physical and emotional limits and challenges you to experience God as you truly have cannot finish this thing completely on your own strength. This experience really helped me grow much closer to God. As I spoke words of truth to my teammates and saw the impact of God’s message and love in my teammates faces it was as if I learned each of those things in a very new, very real way. All of a sudden these were not just words on a page and things that were cool but truths that resonated to the core of who I am. They were truly the definition of my worth and value. When we reached the final event of the S.P.E.C.I.A.L. our team was down 2 men. This final event is a very individual, personal challenge and two people on my team were going to have to do it twice. I challenged my team to prayerfully consider if God wanted them to run it a second time. When we reached the starting point of the event I asked my team if anyone was feeling challenged to run it twice. You could have heard the crickets chirp (not really... two people said they were considering but neither had a strong conviction to go.) Being a captain I did what a captain should do, I said I would start it off and run it twice and by the time I get back I said that I hope someone else will feel they are meant to run it twice. (Andrew did and you can read hid story below.)

Round One
The first time I did it, I remember it being so hard. My legs felt dead and I felt so slow. As I went I was talking to God saying “There are so many people in our group that are so much stronger, and so much faster than me. Surely it would be better for them to run it again. Not that I won’t do it, just if someone else can or should do it... please let them know.” It was really cool because God met me there, and challenged me there. I had this overwhelming sense that I couldn’t ignore. God was telling me that I had so much more in me; that He wanted to do so much more through me. That I will run it again and it will be stronger than the one I am doing right now because He would be my strength and He would carry me. 



Round 2
The second time that I went I had the need to just praise God out loud. It was as if the truth could not be contained just in my head. The whole way down and back up I was proclaiming truth, and there was just this push of truth into my heart. There was no denying the truth that God had for me. I shouted out about His love, how His Grace is sufficient for me, how is mercies are new every day and I need them new every day. Did my legs still burn, yes, did I still feel exhausted and slow, yes. But I pushed harder than I did the first time and I truly leaned on the strength of my creator who loves me with an unfathomable love. One that goes beyond my understanding of love, which overwhelms and overjoys! God is so good, and He met me there on that mountain. He gave me a greater sense of Jesus’ love and sacrifice and a deeper knowledge of just how much I need Him.

 I wanted to share the stories of a few other athletes as well and the impact that God made in their lives through this time.  First is Andrew’s story. It was cool how God works things. The morning of the draft for the S.P.E.C.I.A.L. we were playing soccer. Our team had two less players than our opponents and Andrew was running late. When He arrived the staff decided to put him on our team instead. This was the one and only time we were in contact before the draft. We were meant to be on the same team.
My Fantastic team minus one. 

Facing so many trials and tribulations from the beginning of this year, NTC was a retreat that I originally felt to be a time to reflect on what God has done for me to this day. I can truthfully say it was more than just a bible retreat, more than just an athletic experience, more than an event that I could ever imagine, it was a LIFE changing experience through Jesus Christ who has strengthened my faith and existence as a spirit walking this earth.

I was wound up and hindered by stress for which was bestowed upon me by the loss of my father in early February. I was lost, depressed and had the biggest course load of work to complete in my university history in order to graduate this year. While at NTC all these things were running through my mind before meeting any other university athletes and Christians. 

From day one I could see the way in which Christ has entered into some of these athletes lives, which allowed me to analyze where my faith had lied. Day after day I learned to implement faith in my sport, each day I learned to overcome tendencies for which evil had overcame my mind away from Christ, each day I learned to allow Christ to be the focal point for which I could not be swayed or dismayed in a way which would try and pull me further from His good name. What had really inflamed this spark which was growing inside of me, was the blessing of my teammates with Rachel leading us as our wonderful team captain. As I always live by the motto, "things always happen for a reason" it was no mistake as to why I was on Rachel's team, where a bond from a random occurrence of me being placed on a different team earlier in the week had started. 

As the 24 hour marathon had quickly approached and by being on Rachel's team, I learned to persevere through pray and worship to our blessed Father, who has given us a life to live in His image and likeness. Being short a few players cause of injury and a challenge with finding ones faith, The Joshua's as a team still pressed forward towards the goal to win the prize. (Yes I still have this bible verse memorized which is Philippians 3:14) What had really influenced my journey was our last challenge; Golgotha. 


With having two members short, a couple of our teammates had to go twice. Rachel of course feeling the call from God had volunteered to be one of the two. Before all this, I was notorious for being weak minded, having a heart that was not as strong and a person to shy away from a challenge that seemed to difficult to complete. God had plagued my mind reassuring me that I can do this, not only would I be able to do it but that my father would be watching me with a proud spirit. I stepped up to the challenge, the first time was mentally and physically tough, so much so that I was regretting my decision of volunteering to go twice. But athlete after athlete before my turn again kept pushing through with the strength of Christ, especially from a girl climbing the mountain with two herniated disk all the way to the top. It made me tear up and thoughts of God and my father in heaven kept saying to me that I can get through this, no doubt can hold me back from completing the task for which God has lead me to complete. Each step, each pull of strength, doubt try to keep me from running in faith, each slip from climbing a mountain full of mud and snow tried to keep me from doing this for the God who has given me life and to my father who was a part of my life to be the man I am today. As my teammates continued to sing and praise His name in celebration to push through and make it to the top, I fell to my knees when I had done it. I had completed the impossible for which a weakened mind could not have done before, to a man who was once a boy lead by a man that had graced him with his presence, to a broken down, tired and overwhelmed body for which Jesus’ sacrifice had blessed me with and to others on this planet for the sins that had captured many. Tears of sadness had left the eyes of a boy thankful for these blessings and to have the strength to do this for God and for a father whom I love and cherish to this day. With all these steps of faith and strength today, I am bound by no chain, I am free from all evil and walk with the spirit of Christ within me. 

This was only one experience that had changed my life, but it was an experience that I will carry with me for the rest of my life and I thank God for His blessings to be able to accomplish these challenges and for the support of beautiful people whom I will never forget.

Lastly I wanted to share Gen’s story. Gen is an athlete from Calgary who I respect deeply for her skill and her genuine character. I was blessed to share this experience with her as a roommate and as a friend.

A little bear crawl for Jer and my Dinos girls!!
I struggle to put a spiritual experience into words, because really the way that God moved me and the way that I saw Him work in other athletes from around the country (bringing 250 lbs football players to tears) has no word.  My relationship with Christ has deepened. In one week I fell in love with 70 brothers and sisters, who share the passion of sport with me, and who crave sharing their earthly passion with the God of the universe.  I came to see myself as a creation that was given passions, skills, talents, and that by simply using what I’m given, God is glorified.  Someone told me that a wave is something that’s beautiful, and that by simply being both beautiful and strong in being a wave it shows us God’s glory, and I was amazed at the weight that fell off my shoulders at the thought that by simply living as a creation of God, using the characteristics He’s given me, I am fulfilling my role as a creation, because God’s glory shines through all that is good.  


More than anything, I experienced the reality of my own weaknesses and the overwhelming power of the Spirit in us.  I don’t really want to give you too much detail of my experience, partly because I don’t know how and mostly because I want to encourage each and everyone one of you to explore how deeply you can experience and worship God by giving Him back and surrendering all that our incredibly passion filled, fun, intense, addictive, sometimes toxic and political, creative, raw, emotional, and powerful sport has given you.  I’ll be praying that you all step out of your comfort zone (or uncomfortable but familiar zone) and find a God driven motivation, ridding yourself of the athlete slave that can sometimes take over or that simply keeps nagging you when times get tough.  If you’re as clueless as I am about how to do that, join Athletes in Action on your campus or sign up for the retreats or next year’s NTC.  If anything you’ll have a ton of fun and meet incredibly inspiring people (but I trust that God will use it for so much more than that!).  

Proof that there were some smiles
Sport, properly directed, develops character, makes a man courageous, a generous loser, and a gracious victor; it refines the senses, gives intellectual penetration, and steels the will to endurance. It is not merely a physical development then. Sport, rightly understood, is an occupation of the whole man, and while perfecting the body as an instrument of the mind, it also makes the mind itself a more refined instrument for the search and communication of truth and helps man to achieve that end to which all others must be subservient, the service and praise of his Creator



I pray that you will be impacted by these stories and the change God left in the lives of each of these athletes. Athletes who will return to their teams to bring Christ into their sport and who will spread a passion for His name to teammates, coaches, fans and friends. To see some video reflections from NTC look at http://www.youtube.com/user/2thewallpaper. There are 3 videos of athletes’ perspectives from NTC. 

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

AIA Retreat Review- March 2011

I wanted to give you an update on some of the ways God has been working through Athletes in Action here in Canada before I leave.  Our athletes in action group on campus was so blessed to see a pair of U of C basketball players give their lives to Christ this year and are so encouraged by their passion and love for Him!!

At the end of March we were able to bring 7 athletes out to a retreat in Gull Lake with other Christian athletes from U of A, U of S, U of R and some other colleges. It was a time of growth and the athletes were challenged by Rodd Sawatsky (the Chaplain for the Calgary Stampeders) to be clear in where their identity was found. One of the ways we did this was by walking alongside the paralyzed man who was lowered from the roof giving us the chance to see the bible come alive in a way many had never experienced. To strongly see the mat that He spent his life on (think about that for a second. This man is paralyzed, that means he can not walk. If there is no one there to help him this would mean he is stuck on that mat, if he got sick, he got sick on the mat, if he needed the bathroom, he was stuck on his mat... you get it? People could use him as a landmark, kids would say to each other lets meet at the guy on the mat, you’ll be able to find him, you can smell him from three blocks away...This man’s identity was completely tied up with his mat),  to think of what would drive the men that carried him on his mat to put up with the smells and the dirt that would have defined the paralyzed man’s years on that mat. To feel the men’s struggle as they stood outside the house that was full to the brim of people, knowing they could not bring the paralyzed man in, but knowing that they needed to get him to Jesus, because Jesus could heal him. To think of the men as they dug through the roof, dirt spilling on the richest, most honoured men of society, and on Jesus himself. To be lowered with the paralyzed man who spent his whole life hoping people wouldn’t look at him, but dying to be seen for who he really is not just for his condition, who was now the center of attention for a captive audience. When he was finally lowered at Jesus’ feet Jesus doesn’t heal what the man and his friends thought he so desperately needed, instead Jesus heals his heart and his soul saying “your sins are forgiven.” Now you can imagine the outcome, the men that carried him and lowered him down are probably confused, Jesus is calm, the spectators are all going “ooh... what’s going to happen now, this man Jesus just said he forgives someone’s sins...” they are looking the Pharisees for how to respond, the Pharisees are outraged... thinking to themselves “Why does this fellow talk like that? He’s blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone?” , and the paralyzed man is still stuck on his dirty disgusting mat thinking to “himself Jesus just forgave my sins, I am free and forgiven.” Then the spirit revealed the Pharisees thoughts to him and he turns to them and says “Why are you thinking these things? Which is easier: to say to this paralyzed man, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Get up, take your mat and walk’?”. He could have left them their scratching their heads but in his mercy and to show once again his authority as the son of God he turns to the man and says pick up your mat and go home. Talk about your epic movie climax, the man picks up his mat and leaves, the people are floored and leave praising God for his power. We are left with the question of why Jesus made the man pick up his mat, it still smelled just as bad as it did before the man was healed yet Jesus told him to carry it. Sometimes Jesus heals us of our pain right away, and sometimes we carry our hurt and our scars as a chance to glorify God. When people on the street asked this man “hey buddy what’s with the mat?”, He will be able to turn to them and say, I used to be stuck on this mat, then Jesus healed my soul, forgave my sins, and allowed me to walk again. What a powerful testimony brought on by a dirty, smelly, disgusting mat!

I wanted to share with you one of our AIA Calgary students experience from retreat as well. God was definitely moving in the entire group, not just in my life. There is movement on the U of C campus and I can’t wait to see what God is going to do! 

"AIA Retreat experience

The main take out I have from the retreat was the theme of Rodd's first session but I felt it related to every talk he had. Defining who I was, or in my case, Redefining. I remember how he showed how John described himself as just being the one that Christ loved. Period. Going into the retreat I was a little overwhelmed with school, getting results from my midterms and also the results I had from my track season. I wasn't in the greatest of places. I remember when Rodd came to our AIA night I said something along the lines of "I know God loves me and that he is there, but so what? how is this affecting my life". Going in, in my head I've always known God is number one but by how I let school and track and just other things in my life effect my attitude towards life and everyday living it hit me at retreat that they were definitely sharing roles of 1a,1b,1c. So it became an evaluation of trying to turn my heart towards the attitude that John had as well. To be that Christ loves me and that is all I need. To know that while grades and performances are great and to an extent important, I can't let it define who I am and how I will live my life. 

So I guess that was the biggest thing that impacted me from the retreat because I was able to apply it quickly and into the rest of the semester and to push through finals. I gave it my best, and while I guess the results still sting cause it sure wasn't what I thought I would get since I thought I started to grasp the concepts in my classes there's just been some peace, and I've been able to bring a much more joyful attitude into everyday."

It was great to see the encouragement that these athletes received from the fellowship in that time. To know that Athletes in Action is so much broader than just our campus and to meet some of the athletes they play against is always so special. All of us left with such a profound impact from one of our worship songs. It’s called “Never let Go” by Matt Redman. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2FWj7yqf6oM
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death 
Your perfect love is casting out fear 
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life 
I won’t turn back 
I know You are near 

And I will fear no evil 
For my God is with me 
And if my God is with me 
Whom then shall I fear? 
Whom then shall I fear? 

Oh no, You never let go 
Through the calm and through the storm 
Oh no, You never let go 
In every high and every low 
Oh no, You never let go 
Lord, You never let go of me 

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on 
A glorious light beyond all compare 
And there will be an end to these troubles 
But until that day comes 
We’ll live to know You here on the earth 

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on 
And there will be an end to these troubles 
But until that day comes 
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

It is so powerful to remember that through the good and the bad, the mountains and the valleys God is never letting go of us! Praise God for the work He did at retreat and for the two basketball players from U of C that have accepted His sacrifice and gave their lives to Him at a Campus Harvest event down in the US!!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Some More Details About My Trip

I have accepted an opportunity to work with the Under-17 South African National Women’s Soccer Program. My duties will include many different things, including mentorship, Bible studies, and one-on-one discipleship, in addition to organizing such outreach as soccer camps and service events that will enable the National Team women to assist the townships surrounding Pretoria.

Women’s soccer in South Africa tends to be dictated by a few major cultural influences. Soccer in this country is widely considered to be a male sport, played by the black population, although this stereotype is slowly changing. Due to this dynamic, the women playing soccer are mostly from the townships, and have had to work very hard with often little or no support from their families to help them make it to the National level. While I am in South Africa, the majority of my time will be spent working with the U-17 National Womens’ team players. With the growing success of the National Soccer program, these women will be exposed to increased pressures they have not experienced before, and these pressures can lead them towards alcoholism, drugs, and lesbianism. My goal while spending time with these women will be to help equip them to face these new pressures, and to influence them to emerge as leaders that will have a positive impact on South Africa.

Through the 11 months I will be working with the Team, I plan to hold a weekly group Bible study with the girls, as well as provide mentoring and discipleship. There will, no doubt, be opportunity for me to use what I have learned while studying toward my Bachelor of Kinesiology degree to provide education on hygiene, nutrition, injury prevention and rehabilitation, along with sport psychology, identity and self-worth.  I will also be sharing with the girls what is involved in service outreach, by taking them with me to help run sports camps (partnered with local churches), and bringing them to serve at some surrounding orphanages.

God willing, at the end of this 11 month program, with the help of the South African Staff, I hope to have accomplished four main goals:
1/ to have built a heightened relationship between the South African National Soccer Program and Athletes in Action. This is hoped to open doors for the instalment of full time chaplaincy on the National teams, starting with the U-17 womens’ team.
2/ I desire to fulfill   the Great Commission by building up disciples who are fully equipped to make further disciples.
3/ I want to help build active and operational sport ministry programs in local churches that are equipped to both continue the programs after I leave, as well as prepare other churches to do the same.
4/  As I will be the first AIA staff member to be working full time in Pretoria, I hope to help establish  a South African AIA staff member provided by the Lord whom  I can mentor to continue the work once I’ve completed  my time there.

My prayer is that God will fill you with a passion for this ministry to His daughters in South Africa. This past summer, I saw God’s hand working and many lives changed through our time there. Together we can have a lasting impact, and leave a long term structured program in South Africa. If you haven't already please watch the video on the right.  

There are three major ways you can partner with me:
1.      Prayer. My current prayer needs are for provision and safety as I prepare to make this move, that God would be preparing the hearts of the girls I will be working with that they will be open to His words and also for someone to continue the work when I leave. The harvest is plentiful. Other requests are posted on my blog as well.
2.      Financial Support I need to raise $40,000 to cover my costs while there. I would ask you to please prayerfully consider partnering with me on a monthly basis. You can donate online at http://secure.powertochange.org/p-534-bauer-rachel-ministry.aspx. (Please let me know if you would like  more information on other ways to donate)
3.      Networking and Sharing the vision for this trip with others whom you think may have a passion for sport, ministry or reaching South Africa.  Please do not underestimate the impact that sharing this with even one or two others could have.

Monday, January 17, 2011

South Africa 2010 Recap

 First off I just want to praise God for the amazing opportunity that it was to go down to South Africa and for the part that each of you played in making it possible for me to get there. 

Our first week was spent in a camp near the capital city of Pretoria. It had soccer and rugby fields, an obstacle course, paintball, kind of an all around recreation camp.  We left on a Friday afternoon and arrived in Johannesburg (Jo’burg) early on Sunday morning with only a small 4 hour layover in Hong Kong. From the airport we drove for an hour into the countryside and had our first look at this beautiful country. We arrived at camp had a bit of spare time, a cultural orientation and then the girls started to arrive around lunch time. It was cool to see friendships beginning to form even on the very first day. I have to say things started out a little bit rocky the first night. All of us North Americans were exhausted from the full journey we had, and our roommates were rather excited to be there. Our team crashed around 10:30 attempting to sleep but when the eleven o’clock lights out passed without any change in light or volume I found myself getting a little frustrated. When the lights finally went off around 2 am I was extra exhausted but grateful for the chance to finally sleep. You can only imagine how it felt to hear a voice saying it’s time to get up, only to be corrected by another saying no it isn’t, it’s only 4am. Knowing that breakfast was at 7:30 I was looking forward to a fair bit more sleep but when the lights went on at 5am we knew we were in trouble. I remember journaling that these girls are crazy and don’t need sleep and letting God know that I would need every extra ounce of strength He could give me just to survive without this sleep.  It was a wild start to our journey.

Luckily from that point on camp continually got better. To give you a better idea of what a truly amazing opportunity this was I will give you a bit more detail on who was there. Our team consisted of 15 girls that play at universities and colleges throughout Canada and the USA. 5 full time AIA staff members involved with AIA soccer in Canada, and our coach who coaches at a Div 1 school in San Diego and his wife. We spent the week with 3 South African national level coaches, 50 girls playing for South Africa at the senior, U-20 and U-17 levels and a few of the AIA South Africa Staff.

We really had a chance to bond with our roommates on teams in a survivor style obstacle course and puzzle competition. Some of the obstacles included wading through waist deep mud and water and doing some military style exercises. This was a chance to break down cultural barriers and work together. The obstacle course followed by an intense eating competition where the delicacies included: chicken hearts, a raw potato, a hot pepper, liver, snails, this gross looking fish, chicken feet, cow’s hoof, monkey brain, and the lovely dish that I was served, a bar one chocolate bar which came to be one of our favourite treats.  
After the first crazy day which also included a training session on the field we fell into a comfortable routine. We would spend the morning going through some principles of where God fits in with sport and in their lives. During these times we had many chances to share experiences from our lives and encourage each other and learn of the lives of these girls. My group consisted mostly of younger girls 16 and 17 with our oldest being 19. Our discussions started out with a lot of leading and direction from me and the other AIA team members. But as the week progressed the girls began to open up what was on their hearts. What they thought, the questions they had and they were so eager for knowledge. The issues that are the biggest struggles for the girls there are the topics of lesbianism, and ancestor worship. Underlying those is the idea of identity. We were able to share what the bible has to say on these topics and challenge their choices while still having a chance to love on them. This was powerful both for them and for my own growth. On the field we challenged the girls with scenarios where they had the chance to think about what motivates them and helped them learn what it means to worship God through soccer. We also had a chance to train including some goalie training which was a lot of fun for me.

This is a link to a video that was made while we were there. http://worldsoccerjourneys.com/features/healing-begins/video-hangin-tough/ Below there are also some articles that were written about our trip.

We also had the chance so spend time in the township of Shoshanguve. This was a unique experience for all of us. We were humbled to be greeted with so much love and enthusiasm. When we arrived we were paraded down the street with drummers, dancers and of course plenty of vuvuzelas. When we arrived at the church they performed dances, read us some poetry they had written and we had the chance to worship together. We spent three days in the township and each were action packed. After the worship time on the first day we played a girls team from within the township. After the game I shared my testimony with the group and we shared the gospel with them as well. Returning to the church we had the chance to watch South Africa play France on a screen in the church. This was an amazing experience to cheer along side of the locals. It was crazy and I wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere but there for the game. When South Africa scored absolute madness broke out. At halftime we all went outside and sang and danced and cheered.

The second day that we were there we had the opportunity to serve alongside of some of the older youth/young adults in the church. Half of our group went to a hospice while the other half including myself went to an old age home.  I had the opportunity to connect with some of the girls from the church as we made a meal for the staff and residents South African style. This was a great chance to get a better understanding of everyday life for an average South African young adult. Hanging out with these girls I had a chance to expand my dance repertoire and was filled with a lot of joy. I felt so loved an accepted by the young women of the church and enjoyed the chance to love on and build them up.
It was great to see how the church not only appreciated the time that we spent with them but had a desire to use our time to strengthen their ministry to those around them. Before we left we ran another small soccer clinic and the leadership couldn’t wait to start their own sport ministry using the tools and equipment we had given them. We also had a unique chance to encourage and strengthen the women of the church. Already a team of women had found a coach and were excited to start playing and training and taking on other women’s teams as a means of connecting with them and sharing God’s love. Also on our last day with them we played a group of the young women from the church most who had never played soccer on a team before. Just to hear the excitement in the girl’s voices and watching them as they played made the trip worthwhile. It is hard to predict what kind of difference the presence of sport in their lives will do. I know for me it has given me confidence and a sense of team and strength that I wouldn’t necessarily have.  That was one of the greatest encouragements from this trip to see not people not only being impacted by our ministry themselves but desiring to pass it forward and use it to reach others.

Also we did have a chance to make it to the world cup. We were blessed to attend a game between USA and Algeria. This was amazing because our leaders had been trying to get tickets and couldn’t find them anywhere. We almost had to give up when our coaches connected with a contact from San Diego and God blessed us with 27 tickets all together! It was an amazing blessing.

Thank you for all of your prayers and support for me while I was away on this trip and as I continue seeking Christ and His plans for my life. Since the trip I have applied to return to South Africa after I graduate in April so will let you all know more about that when I start to know some details.
All my love and Godbless!

Rachel  

Shoshanguve

Camp with the National Team Girls:
http://svtplay.se/v/2052335/banjana_banjana_-_sydafrikas_damlandslag (this video was made by a Swedish television crew that came to see us play.)